I saw this on a blog i just read and it resonates with me.  I have to have the courage to submit to my Master.. No amount of punishment will get me there..  I have to have the courage to do it myself, to want to submit to him, the courage to submit to him....

She wrote this:  The Black Leather Belt

I do relate to being afraid of one’s own submission. I really get that. What I don’t get is how that should be your dominant’s problem. It is your fear (it was my fear) and yes, you need to trust, but it is your own control of your fear that is the submission. It is your courage that is needed here.

It is my  own FEAR....